No more holding on the extra weight
Being highly sensitive, empathic, and sweet soul it's hard to call the shots. I am always in my head about how the other person will react or feel. I am not sure if this is people pleasing behavior or some childhood wounds that is at play, its something there.
These couple of weeks I have retreated to my shell, a hermit, to be exact and feel good to be in this space again. I’ve felt the burnout rear its head again with my career and relationships in my life. (It's a solar eclipse in Libra, after all)
This is the hard part of cutting those out of my life when they served their purpose for the time given. The signs were there but I was turned a blind eye to it. As we are coming to the new year, some relationships cant make this trip with me.
To describe this feeling of burnout: feeling apathic to show up in these relationships, disinterested in conversations, avoidance of picking up the phone, snappy or angered, a shrugged shoulder movement, and questioning the relationship, as a whole. I haven't been in my head at all about the people in my life.
With new phases in life, comes new set of skill or awareness.
Dreams have become vivid these past couple of days, people sailing out of my life, nightmares have become a familiar routine with those close to me, the constant dred to show up fully to be in those circles. It's been pointing to a purge that must take place.
Ending this year with a purge to really recalibrate and bring a new tribe to fit this new vibe that I am bringing. As they say,” Out with the old, in with the new”.
